Surprise! It’s a two-for-one! That’s right! I’ve added two posts in the same day! WOOOO! Get excited!…but not too much, because this will never happen again. Anyway!
Raise your hand if you understand the title!
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PUT YOUR HAND DOWN, YOU LIAR!
Well, maybe a few of you will get at least part of it by the end. Anyway…
For a reason that a few may pick up on, I’ve been feeling like it’s time to share why I write this blog anonymously with absolutely no regard for regularity or the passage of time.
Warning: This one’s going to get a bit dark.
First off, I AIN’T GOTS NO TIMES! And, by that I mean that I’m poor…very poor. I’m so poor that I wouldn’t be considered upper class in an “undeveloped” country. (Sure, I could’ve written a joke to get a cheap laugh, but I’m not a whore for laughs—or for anything for that matter, and I prefer to make people think. IT WAS A CREATIVE CHOICE AND I STAND BY IT, DAMN YOU!) You see, unlike you degenerates, I’m not a delusional, narcissistic, hypocrite who feels the need for validation from strangers, family, friends, or anyone, and being someone who refuses to put anything or anyone else above my health and well-being doesn’t bring in the big or medium-sized bucks, and no one would pay me to write the contents in these posts because nothing and no one is off-limits for me—or are there some masochists out there who would…? Let me know and I’ll gladly install a plugin for you to donate!
…I’m not joking.
Anyway, I mean, how dare someone choose to put their health above the Almighty God (White Massa) and his obsessive-compulsive need to control and manipulate everyone and everything because he’s terrified of everyone figuring out that’s he’s actually an incompetent impostor who’s afraid of becoming irrelevant and excluded! This means that my source of income requires a lot more of my time for a lot less money….ahhh…poverty. With what sporadic and little free time that I do have, I’ve been using it to try to find at least one person with access to the internet to prove me wrong about what humanity has become (otherwise known as, I’m trying to start something that will allow me to use my unique skill set to continue acquiring more skills and knowledge that will enable more self-reliance and further improve my health while not being bound by White Massa’s sadistic and destructive rules, and to help others who genuinely want the same, because access to knowledge shouldn’t be a privilege—a global non-profit organization, if you will. Vague, I know, but a few of you reading this know what I’m talking about…ahem). But, alas, no one has. I’m not surprised, but it’s still disappointing.
…DAMN YOU, GATEKEEPERS AND YOUR SOLELY SELF-SERVING PERSONAL AGENDAS! (I’m emphatically shaking my fist at you in my head just so you know.)
…Anyhoo!
Then, there’s the primary, overarching reason. I know a lot about a lot, and I understand humanity better than anyone before me has, and better than anyone after me ever will (of course you don’t get it if this is the first post that you’re reading. I can forgive your ignorance under the circumstances). To help you better understand where I’m coming from, let’s consider the iceberg metaphor. Let’s take the iceberg as the current amount of knowledge of which I consciously possess—about any and all things. All of the people who have ever even gotten a far-off glimpse of just the tip of the iceberg from above the surface of the water have gone clinically insane and killed themselves, become heavily addicted to (illegal or legal) drugs, died of an (intentional or “accidental”) drug overdose, ended up in some sort of state institution in a constant zombie-like semi-conscious state as a result of being hopped up on doctor-recommended medications, and/or gone on a psychotic homicidal rampage(s).
No, I’m not exaggerating. YOU DON’T KNOW MY LIFE!…and I choose to keep it and make sure that it stays that way. #metoo, My body, my choice!
Anyhoo-how, there is not enough man-made money in this world that would ever make me want to be, or, even just be okay with being, famous. I will, under no circumstances, be anyone’s cult leader, personal life coach, weapon/tool, god, idol, or whatever other title that humans have given to animals/things who/that are used as a means to shirk responsibility or blame for one’s own life or actions out of fear. You see, you all seem to believe that there are only two types of people in the world: leaders and followers. I realized I wasn’t a follower in middle school. However, it wasn’t until much later that I became sure that I’m also not a leader. I’m a hermit!…sans religion, of course, and the stereotypical foul body odor. I don’t have a body odor that is consciously detectable by the average, or even above-average, human olfactory system, which is a very literal and grandiloquent way of saying that I actually smell like nothing. I’m sure many of you were curious about that, so, you’re welcome. Anyway, I know that, because you very-little-to-no-self-control-having, “self-destructive behavior in moderation is good!”-subscribing creatures have a grossly perverted primal urge to put animals/things on pedestals, you won’t be able to resist doing that to me. I absolutely abhor, detest, loathe—and every other synonym available in English—pedestals, because those on pedestals can’t reach the ground. Sure, maybe a small one can give someone a broader view of what’s happening on the ground, but it never stops there. It is built higher and higher until the one atop the pedestal can’t even see the ground anymore, and has to go through many others with their own personal self-serving agendas. Other people build the pedestal, and other people are also the ones to tear it down whenever they feel like it. I will never, under any circumstances, concede such power to anyone. I don’t need a pedestal to get a broader, bird’s-eye view of what’s happening on the ground because I have the internet…and a certain natural je ne sais quoi. So, I just wanted to put this out there: I don’t want your pedestal, and, figuratively speaking, of course, if anyone even so much as attempts to try to build one for me, I will tear it down with my bare hands and everyone involved will pay dearly—but not with violence or in any traditional/expected way… I have my uniquely inimitable ways, ’cause I’z iz sthpecial like dat. What? …MY MOM SAYS I’M SPECIAL! I’m kidding about the ‘they will pay’ part…kind of…or am I…? Either way, I don’t recommend anyone attempting to find out.
While I’m on this topic…to Black people: it would be a missed opportunity to help a lot of you further your healing process if I didn’t let you know that many of you have a deeply subconscious aversion to being placed on a pedestal. It’s a long, complicated story that I will get deeper into in another post (maybe), but, you see, as I mentioned in a previous post, because of Black peoples’ higher genetic diversity, you, Black people, have skills and traits that allow you to better thrive on this planet in its natural state than other types of humans (it’s not racist…it’s fact and science and the truth. I’m not calling any race “superior,” so shut the fuck up.). Beginning thousands of years ago—up to and ending around the time that the last Nubian kingdom fell, Black people were essentially openly and consciously viewed as gods by non-Black people (Those words have been emphasized for a reason. As I said, it’s a whole long and complicated backstory that requires it’s own post, so…maybe later), because they could do so many things that they’d never before seen, and/or couldn’t do themselves. These non-Black people, but, particularly the extra-thirsty and desperate white people who didn’t have really anything to offer or know much of anything useful, wanted Black peoples’ validation/attention/acknowledgement/approval, and/or help with any and everything, from knowledge about philosophy, astronomy, medicine/healing methods, and astrology, to building/engineering projects, and whatever else. Although some may have enjoyed the attention, many just wanted to live in peace and not be constantly burdened with the responsibility of the problems of strangers and people wanting something from them. There are also those Black people who held positions of power and things didn’t go well, and they blamed themselves and regretted ever being in a position that allowed them to make decisions that affected many other people. These Black people may have lived in kingdoms in what is now Africa, such as Egypt and in the area of then-Nubia, but many left areas like Egypt to go to other places (**That was the real mass exodus, Jews. The “exodus” of what you refer to as your people was a bit different, and by “a bit”, I mean that you’ve been out here spreading whole ass lies for generations. I would shame you, and you, too, Christians, but most of you have none, so…**), possibly returning to their ancestral tribes all across the continent of what is now referred to as Africa. Some of their descendants were then kidnapped, (sometimes sold, sometimes just snatched up directly by the Great Pasty Ones), and taken to other continents to be slaves. Black people, these, too, are your ancestors, meaning that some of that fear of freedom comes from subconscious memories of what it was like when non-Black people (again, especially and particularly, white people) openly and consciously worshiped your Black ancestors—just for being Black. This has made too many of you not want to get anywhere near any position of power—even going so far as to voluntarily suppress your own innate power (and/or attempt to bring down other Black people who refuse to suppress theirs), because you just want to be left alone—with whatever is your community—to live in peace, and subconsciously don’t want what was happening long ago to come back full circle—although it never actually stopped (again…long complicated story/explanation for another time). For example, all of the “well-intentioned” white people bothering that one Black person who they know to teach them how to not be racist. This is the reason that—and I am by no means defending what this person said—Terry Crews doubled, tripled, and even quadrupled down on his absolutely ignorant…and I mean straight up ignant comments about the possibility of “Black supremacy.” It was like a game of telephone. Once his ancestors voices were filtered through all of the insecurities, trauma, and stupid, the message was ass-backward, unintelligible nonsense. Again, not a defense. I don’t defend stupid, I just explain it.
Anyway, that sense of entitlement that causes those white people to feel that you’re obligated to basically be on-call for them because you know/can do something(s) that they don’t/can’t is what many of you Black people are, on a subconscious level, desperately trying to avoid. That sense of entitlement is inevitable toward any god-like figure…which, again, with my… um…extra uniqueness, let’s say, is why I, personally, have chosen to opt out of interacting with you crazy kids in a “normal” way. So, in other words, I have to do things this way not because I wouldn’t be able to handle it, but because you clingy, entitled, dreadfully emotionally needy, highly-prone-to-obsessive/stalkerish-behavior, sado-masochistic dippin’ shits can’t. I refuse to expend any energy dealing with you peoples’ foolishness that is not absolutely necessary to maintain or improve my health and well-being. I don’t have the socially constructed time for that. Yes, that does include you. News flash: you aren’t special. Having said that, Black people, you need to learn about and acknowledge your innate, natural power, embrace and nurture it, set your personal boundaries, and, most importantly, under no conditions feel bad or guilty for doing any of these things. This, whether subconscious or conscious, fear of truly owning your own power, as well as the strong subconscious aversion to societal positions of power is much stronger in Black females. Obviously, because of the male ego, regardless of race/ethnicity, males are more desirous of praise from others, and have more of an urge to make sure people know that/when they’ve done something deemed to be good, helpful, and/or beneficial, with many often taking credit for others’ actions, in addition to a much stronger desire to want to be immortalized in some way. On the other hand, their female counterparts tend to want to be more focused on the well-being of the group. (This is exactly why the vast majority of past events have been recorded by males.)
By the way, you’re welcome for that revelatory tangent.
Look, when it comes down to it, I know that, as Fannie Lou Hamer said, “nobody’s free until everybody’s free,” and my patience has already worn reeeeeeaaaaaally thin. I WANT MY FREEDOM, AND I WANT IT NOW, DAMN IT!! Not anyone else’s version, or what anyone else thinks that my freedom should be. So, with that said, I present to you an ultimatum: give me my freedom on my terms, or let me go forever. This world doesn’t deserve me, and I don’t deserve to be chained to it, or chained up in it. (I am very deliberate about my choice of words, so think about it. Hint: this is that dark turn that I mentioned. No, not that way, you crazy kids. No one is allowed to intentionally cause me harm—that especially includes myself. It will be peaceful.)
To sum it all up, I am by far THE most selfish being on this planet. Yep, this is all about ME! MUAH HAHAHAHA! … It’s just that, unlike you all, I’m not at all self-serving. (I just blew your mind, didn’t I? Yeah, it is actually possible to be selfish but not self-serving.)
Finally, I would like to conclude this PSA by warning you that, now that I’ve spoken my truth, there will be manipulative, predatory psychopaths (mostly white people)—also known as “anti-empaths,” who will try to come out and use my personal reasons for anonymity to do vile and disgusting things because they feel that they have a new tool in their arsenal. I don’t recommend believing them, and by that I mean DON’T DO IT! IT’S A TRAP! (You missed my catchphrase, didn’t you?)
Well, do you understand the title now?
Oh, and this is very much off-topic, but you people need to stop coercing/forcing people to apologize when they have absolutely no remorse for what they’ve done. Just take that (very important and revealing) information and adjust/move accordingly. Otherwise, and what is considered to be the norm or “normal”, you’re enabling (and thus encouraging) harmful socio/psychopathic behavior. This needs to be applied to all children ASAP so that you become a society that can 1) be able to identify socio/psychopaths before they cause irreparable damage/harm/trauma to others, 2) stop enabling such tendencies (behavior) and consequently nurturing/fostering them (it), and 3) teach the children that the world is filled with people who don’t care about hurting them, so they need to learn to find healthy tools to develop self-soothing skills and lean on those who actually do in times of crisis. All of this dishonesty, duplicity, and fake nice “I’m a good person!” bullshit is you ass-backwards creatures’ main problem. I present a scenario: When a small child just suddenly throws dirt in the face of another small child—for no logical reason (I’ve seen this happen), the small child who’s just gotten dirt thrown in their eyes will inevitably cry. (Ideally, their should be two adults, where one goes immediately to the nascent psycho dirt-thrower, and the other goes immediately to the unfortunate recipient.) So, an adult overseeing their care should approach the child who’s been terrorized, help them get the dirt out of their eyes, and once they’ve calmed down a bit, then bring over the little nascent psycho (absolutely, under no conditions, do you take the child who’s been harmed to the one who harmed them) and, in front of the other child, calmly ask them if they feel bad for throwing dirt in the other one’s face. If they say no, then (again, calmly) ask why they did it. They may not be able to verbalize why, but it’ll cause them to think about what they’ve done long after that incident if they truly don’t understand why they did it, and the adult carer can calmly explain why it wasn’t okay. Then, take the terrorized child away and explain to them that there are people who do bad things and either don’t know why they did it, or don’t feel bad for doing it, but that they (the adult carer) want them (the child) to know that, not only is it okay to not play with these types of people (it’s very important to not just say kids/children), but that they (the child) should not play with them (i.e., stay away from them, in non-child terms). Do not, under any circumstances, tell them that they (the adult carer) are going to punish the other kid for being mean, because then you’re taking the focus away from them (i.e., the child who’s been harmed and still trying to process what just happened), and fostering a need for them to only be able to feel okay if they see/know that the other has been punished—emphasis on “only if”, because that is what’s unhealthy). Then, ask the child if they understand and be open to answering any possible questions honestly, tell them (the child) that they (the child) should feel free to talk about what happened to them and how it made them feel with someone who they trust, and leave it at that. (If, and only if, they ask about what’s going to happen to the child that terrorized them, then the adult carer should just tell the child that they will see to it that the other child gets the help that they need to not hurt anyone like that again. Then, the adult should state that what’s important now is that they (the harmed child) are okay). It’s also extremely important that the adult carer does not, under any circumstances, force the two children to hug, or allow the little nascent socio/pyschopath to touch the child who they harmed at all while the harmed child is still visibly upset, and until after the terrorized child has had the conversation with the adult carer that I described above. This way, the child will not grow up being a target of socio/psychopaths, because they will learn to not be dependent on others to make them “feel better”, i.e., it will be much less likely that they will enter into any type of co-dependent relationship with socio/psychopaths who emotionally manipulate or abuse them.
For the little nascent socio/psychopath, out of the sight of the child whom they’ve terrorized, the adult carer should enforce some sort of reasonable punishment, like, for young children, ask the nascent psycho if they would be okay with someone throwing dirt in their face. If they can’t yet write, then have them go and sit in a corner alone and draw a picture of someone (make sure not to say ‘child’/‘kid’ here, because this information could be very revealing) throwing dirt in their face, and how they’d feel if someone threw dirt in their face. Then, once they’ve finished, have them explain the picture (if it wasn’t in writing), and tell them that, if they ever do feel bad for throwing dirt in the other child’s face, then it’s okay to tell that to the other child. If the child can write, then make sure it is with a paper and pencil—none of that typing BS, and instead of having them write about someone throwing dirt in their face, have them write about a time that someone did something to hurt them, and how they felt. The adult carer should have them read it out loud (only to them). But, in both cases, also explain to them that that child may not want to play with them again, and that that’s the other child’s choice, because they (the little nascent socio/psychopath) did something to hurt them. This way, the socio/psychopathic behavior isn’t subconsciously rewarded/enabled in either child as a result of both kids seeing that the one who caused the harm gets more attention, and the child who caused the harm knows that their punishment for hurting people will be having to be alone and no one wanting to play with them. Plus, the parent(s)/guardian(s) will have the picture (or written assignment) to show to a child therapist if necessary. On the other side of it, the need to play the victim (and sometimes lie to do so) when not having actually been victimized is also not enabled or encouraged, because both children would be able to see that being a victim doesn’t fulfill any insecurity-based desire for extra attention that they may have, i.e., the harmed child wasn’t coddled. Both children involved will also feel that their feelings were validated and they received the attention that they needed. Also, know that there should be no exceptions for siblings. Under no conditions should socio/psychopathic behavior be encouraged or enabled. Warning signs and/or cries for help, especially from children, should not be ignored because of blood ties, or some sort of twisted sense of “loyalty”.
…and that’s how it’s done, or, rather, how it should be done, folks! Geez, I have to spell out everything for you if-humans-were-doughnuts-you’d-be-poison-flavored, degenerate simpletons. I give, and give, and give…where is my ROI, that is, where is the return on my investment, hm?…HHMM?!? I just want to be able to continue gaining the knowledge and skills that I need to improve my own health, and use my unique skill set to find and help those who need and sincerely want to do the same, but you entitled, narcissistic, little bastardized ingrates just…you know what…that’s it. I’m fucking exhausted and I have to go continue to be exploited now so that I can somehow at least maintain my current level of health. I just can’t with you creatures. I’m done.
Until next time…?